Self Reflection

Someday everything will all make perfect sense.
So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears, and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason.

Unknown

Once in our lifetime we experience some sense of adventure and fresh undertakings. Risks we tend to experiment, why? Possibly or maybe due to boredom with our daily life routine... i guess no one really knows. Then we rediscover ourselves, we explore something new, we found strange yet fun different things that we never thought will come across and take pleasure in the end, and all this distinct discoveries makes our heart leap with excitement. We became carefree and full spirited --- we were reborn!

STOP --- all of a sudden we realize, is this the path we need to embark? We were lost there for a second or so we think... we learn to hate ourselves for allowing all the occurrences to be consume with the new found thrill and passion, yet unsure if maybe this is the real you. Self esteem is nowhere to be found. We loathe ourselves for allowing this happiness grow into us. Now we are torn between getting our old life back or fight for the new found beginning.

Our logical brain cells turns on and decide things for us... our heart felt numb, our life looks very foggy, we simply just want to run away and wish we'll be gone. But here we are, we can still hear the beating of our hearts. Maybe slow, thready, and achy but definitely working well.

Now the big question, what to do? Where do we go from here? --- Maybe some 'time' ... time to heal, time to reflect, and time to love oneself again. If this is so, we surely need that Big TIME to take over. Oh yes, we are looking forward to enjoy life again, be ourselves again, and be able to share our own being without hesitation, full of hope, and love.

Message to self --- "I will be fine in time."

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Photo above is the pier we love to fish ... Shelter Island Pier.

Use Canon S95 on the photo above, my new compact digicam --- isn't she awesome!

New Found Love

The desire that drives you to better yourselves and passion that goes with it makes you want for more.

Been planning birthday parties for my girls for over 7 years and i felt like i am out of idea and concept... But i think it is the will and enthusiasm that keeps you going and discover more to make your little girl's birthday wishes fun, entertaining, and full of surprises. The desire to witness those happy smiles in their faces when opportunities like birthdays, it is way too precious to let it just pass by.

Discovered a new found love... will post soon finish products, *wink*.

Life's Fireworks

The vision that you glorify in your mind, the ideal that you enthrone in your heart,

this you will build your life by, and this you will become. 

James Allen

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Life truly is interesting, full of amusement, and it keeps revolving everyday. We attempt to back off a little if it's too demanding, then as soon as we discern a little we slowly move along, and get back into life's unending journey.

This past week and the coming week has been hectic and consuming with activities --- from house guest visits, to little M's 4th birthday coming up, and to the daily house/work routines. Life keeps me on my toes, keeps me level headed, and keeps me wacky at times, *wink*.

Hope everyone has a great weekend so far!

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Photo displayed are from couple of weeks fireworks finale --- Miramar Airshow 2012. 

Lost

Sometimes you think you want to disappear, but all you really want is to be found.

Unknown

In life we go through difficult times, makes you want to give up and retreat. You feel like there is so much expectations that you have to live about, you feel like you are drowning and unsure if you want to be saved or you simply just want to be left alone.

Forthwith, you wish just for a day to be carefree, no strings attach, no motive and reliance... you just want to be YOU --- i just want to be ME.

Trying to get over this tough time... Hopefully soon the tide will turn that i can be at peace and find joy and happiness once again.