Twilight

There is a beauty behind any afterglow, symmetry in every night fall,

and the darkness that awaits and hopes for a restful evening.

Sincerely, Yours Truly

If i will take darkness literally, i have to say we are extremely opposite --- i am totally not a night person (but guess what shift i work at the moment, NOC shift). Secondly, there is always that kid fear in me when it comes to sleeping, personally prefer rather need to have a night lamp turn on at night to be able to have a goodnight sleep.

But when it comes to the art of photography, i have to say 'Night Photography' is one part that i have been sensual and attracted from the beginning when i was still learning. Being a portrait photographer, on and off i miss it terribly, that constant yearning still exist. There is a defiance in taking those shots in an unlit environment. You have that vision yet a sense of excitement building up while waiting for that slower shutter speed to take it's course. The longer it sustain, you know you will have a bigger grandeur effect.

Photo #1 Coit Tower at night. Photo #2 GG Bridge at sundown.

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If you could live forever, what {or who} would you live for?


taken from twilight the movie

Self Reflection

Someday everything will all make perfect sense.
So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears, and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason.

Unknown

Once in our lifetime we experience some sense of adventure and fresh undertakings. Risks we tend to experiment, why? Possibly or maybe due to boredom with our daily life routine... i guess no one really knows. Then we rediscover ourselves, we explore something new, we found strange yet fun different things that we never thought will come across and take pleasure in the end, and all this distinct discoveries makes our heart leap with excitement. We became carefree and full spirited --- we were reborn!

STOP --- all of a sudden we realize, is this the path we need to embark? We were lost there for a second or so we think... we learn to hate ourselves for allowing all the occurrences to be consume with the new found thrill and passion, yet unsure if maybe this is the real you. Self esteem is nowhere to be found. We loathe ourselves for allowing this happiness grow into us. Now we are torn between getting our old life back or fight for the new found beginning.

Our logical brain cells turns on and decide things for us... our heart felt numb, our life looks very foggy, we simply just want to run away and wish we'll be gone. But here we are, we can still hear the beating of our hearts. Maybe slow, thready, and achy but definitely working well.

Now the big question, what to do? Where do we go from here? --- Maybe some 'time' ... time to heal, time to reflect, and time to love oneself again. If this is so, we surely need that Big TIME to take over. Oh yes, we are looking forward to enjoy life again, be ourselves again, and be able to share our own being without hesitation, full of hope, and love.

Message to self --- "I will be fine in time."

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Photo above is the pier we love to fish ... Shelter Island Pier.

Use Canon S95 on the photo above, my new compact digicam --- isn't she awesome!

Life's Fireworks

The vision that you glorify in your mind, the ideal that you enthrone in your heart,

this you will build your life by, and this you will become. 

James Allen

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Life truly is interesting, full of amusement, and it keeps revolving everyday. We attempt to back off a little if it's too demanding, then as soon as we discern a little we slowly move along, and get back into life's unending journey.

This past week and the coming week has been hectic and consuming with activities --- from house guest visits, to little M's 4th birthday coming up, and to the daily house/work routines. Life keeps me on my toes, keeps me level headed, and keeps me wacky at times, *wink*.

Hope everyone has a great weekend so far!

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Photo displayed are from couple of weeks fireworks finale --- Miramar Airshow 2012. 

Fuzzy Bokeh Heart

A note for the broken hearted friend 'C'

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Makes me wonder... Why does men attempt to entice you, but yet when things are doing well, you're nowhere to be found... did you chicken out? Or this is simply how you roll?... If the answer is the latter, then you're a PRICK... If you chicken out, I guess you still owe an explanation --- don't you think?

I'm here for you my friend. Let your heart cry it all out, and when you get tired of crying, that means it's time to move on... It's his lost, and your gain for being acquainted of his nature this early. I know things looks very blurry and hazy right now but please let that heart mend and heal for in no time it will be ready to love again.

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Bokeh describes the rendition of out-of-focus points of light. It describes the appearance or "feel" of out-of-focus backgrounds and foregrounds. Differing amounts of spherical aberration alter how lenses render out-of-focus points of light, and thus their bokeh. The word "bokeh" comes from the Japanese word "boke" (pronounced bo-keh) which literally means fuzziness or dizziness.

Let's talk about LOVE

Love is so full of mystery...

It makes you wonder what's in it really ... John Lennon & Paul McCartney say it in a song --- 'All you need is Love'. It can make you smile for no fervent reason. I often heard from famous quotes that love can move mountains, and can't help notice it makes you exquisitely poetic when you're in the circle of love. So what is so special about love? Does it has an extra ordinary concoction that brings about the soul of every individual, lifting up their spirit so high that at times it tends to blind their visual periphery because there is too much sparks, it back fires resulting into falling and crashing down and for sure that's going to hurt so bad... Or maybe it simply just part of the love-scheme-system, that loving is also learning to let go.

I guess there is really no straight answer to this, huh... love is love, it is neither true or false...

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I feel loved today ... Love! Love! Love! [as Kris Aquino's tagline]


"Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart."

Washington Irving